im probably going to start working on a peice that ill probably actually post up here

its based entirely off a dream i had, the dream was really quite sad, but i liked it

its going to start kind of like this

sinners listen:

there are only two ways to get out of hell. The first of which is death, the second is gaining gods forgiveness

the first thing the devil telsl you when you get to hell is you cant die in hell, the second thing he tells you...god has already turned his back to you. No one lies in hell, not even the devil, there is no reason to lie anymore



well, thats kind of basicly how it will start off, i havent really thought of exactly how ill word that. Thats not really a great summary, seeing how only part of it really regaurded hell, but, its a good way to start it

listening to music while throwing things at the ceiling can makes you feel better

i really dont know why im writing here, i have made no real contact with this site in a long time, wrote my last real journal a month ago, but hey, this is a good way to kill time, and maybe two or three people will look at their messages and say "hey, i kind of remember this guy!" or "hey, i dont remember this guy at all, but clearly i knew him at one time, so i guess ill see what he has to do"

back on subject now, quite seriously, i think sitting here, listening to music, and throwing shit made me happy again, gave me some time to reflect on everything thats been going down in my life, and made me realise that everything that has happened is maybe a blessing in diguise. Apparently im dead (so it goes) to someone i once cared a lot about, but, even though this happened, i strangely feel BETTER, this person really just brough pain into my life, so its nice to have no more ties to her

also, i saw my father again, havent seen him in over 4 years now, and it went pretty aweful...but it set my mind to rest. Ive been worried im becoming like him, a deadbeat junky, aweful person basicly, but you know...im not, and thats a nice thing to know. After seeing him again, i can safely say im not like him, and not becoming anything like him

so damn, i dont know, life is good, im really quite happy for the first time in a long time. Now more self doubts, dont have to take shit anymore from this before mentioned person. Because, you know what? she can try and convince me otherwise, but im a pretty good guy

there are other people who honestly think im a good guy

so, blah

blahblahblah

peace to anyone who was reading this, for whatever reason you were reading this, you rock

got this off a buddy, its interesting i guess

uh this is really just to see if anyone reads this

yeah yeah, way to no be reading this

i rock

you know it

Would you...
[ ] Push me into a wall and kiss me?
[ ] Come To My House To Do Nothing But Chill?
[ ] Slap Me?
[ ] Slap me if i asked you to?
[ ] Kiss Me?
[ ] Let Me Kiss You?
[ ] Watch A Movie With Me?
[ ] Take Me Out To Dinner?
[ ] Take A Shower With Me?
[ ] Take Me Home For The Night?
[ ] Let Me Sleep In Your Bed?
[ ] Let Me Sleep In Your Bed (With You)?
[ ] Take Me Anywhere With You?
[ ] Repost This For Me To Answer Your Questions?
[ ] Lock Me In Your room And Take Advantage Of Me?
[ ] Let me lock you in your room and Take Advantage of you?
[ ] Let Me Make You Breakfast?
[ ] Make me breakfast?
[ ] Tickle Me?
[ ] Let Me Tickle You?
[ ] Stick Up For Me if I Was Being Put Down?
[ ] Instant Message Me?
[ ] Greet Me In Public?
[ ] Hang Out With Me?
[ ] Let Me Hold Your waist from behind while we are out?
[ ] Bring Me Around Your Friends?

Do You...
[ ] Miss Me?
[ ] Think I'm Sexy?
[ ] Think I'm cute?
[ ] Think I'm Hot?
[ ] Think I'm Ok?
[ ] Think I'm Ugly?
[ ] Want To Kiss Me?
[ ] Want To Cuddle With Me?
[ ] Want To Date Me?

Am I...
[ ] Smart?
[ ] Funny?
[ ] Cool?
[ ] Lovable?
[ ] Adorable?
[ ] Great To Be With?
[ ] Attractive?
[ ] Mean?
[ ] Ugly?

Have You Ever...
[ ] Thought About Hooking Up With Me?
[ ] Found Yourself Wanting To Kiss Me Non Stop?
[ ] Wished I Were There?
[ ] Had A Crush On Me?
[ ] Wanted My Number?
[ ] Had A Dream About Me?
[ ] Been Distracted By Me?

Are You...
[ ] Happy You Know Me?
[ ] Thinking About Me
[ ] My Friend?

Well im even more consumed by DOTA as i now have 2 weeks to turn a group of only decent players into a truly worthy team, 2 weeks left until the end of the CEGL sign-ups, the preseason starts basicly right after that and my best player has been MIA for almost 2 weeks, and my second best player ditched us for no reason, i thoroughly trusted the kid too

uh school semester is done in 2 weeks as well and i have like 5 projects to do

uh, i am very stressed out, for reasons i dont even know

Summer Vacation was pretty sweet, well needed

Scrubs is an amazing tv show

uh i got a mic, it worked for 2 hours and is now broken, i need to return it

uh, i dont know

peace

apparently i have to open my media player and put my playlist on random then record the songs for the soundtrack of the video of my life. you can do it too...i guess.





Opening Credits
Hello City- Barenaked Ladies (sweeet)

Waking Up
Paper Thin Walls- Modest Mouse (thats a little...odd)

First Day At School
Wrong Way- Sublime (nice song, not a great fit)

Making Your New Best Friend
She Likes Me For Me- Blessed Union of Souls (good song, not good fit)

Falling In Love
Semi Charmed Life- Third Eye Blind (haha)

Breaking Up
Save Tonight- Eagle Eye Cherry (uh im pretty sure thats the band, not listing the artist, pretty intresting)

Prom
I Miss You- Blink-182 (sweeet)

Graduation
Dont Let The Bastards Grind You Down- The Toasters (YES!!!)

Life's Okay
Brian Wilson- Barenaked Ladies (that doesnt work...at all

Death of a Close Friend
Summertime- Sublime (doesnt work at all)

Mental Breakdown
Mad World- Gary Jules (YES! THAT WORKS PERFECLY!!)

Driving
Teenage Wasteland- The Who (haha)

Flashback
Where'd You Go?- Fort Minor (sweet)

Getting Back Together
Ring Of Fire- Jonny Cash (thats decent)

Birth of Child
What I Got- Sublime (good song, bad match)

Wedding Scene
Wonderwall- Oasis (thats pretty sweet)

Car Accident
Zombie- Cranberries (thats decent)

Final Battle
Ridin Dirty- Chamillionare (YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS SSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HAJHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA)

Death Scene
Jumper- Third Eye Blind (looks like its suicide for me haha)

Funeral Song
Dare You To Move- Switchfoot (sweet)

End Credits
City on Down- OAR (awesome)